Been about a week...

Thanksgiving was pretty good. It was nice to see the family. By time mom and I got home, Eric, Sheri, Micheal C, Michael L, and Miss Payton were at the house.

Friday: Eric, Sheri, Micheal C, Michael L, Dad, and Tyra left for Box Canyon. Mom and I got to watch Miss Payton all day. She is the best baby you could ever think of. She is adorable. :-) I had fun playing with her, she is all smiles. I am sure mom had a blasted too. :).

Playing with the truck,

Chillin and snacking haha

So we were sleepy gosh. lol

Saturday: Eric and them went home :-(. Mom and I went out to Box Canyon, it wasn't the best day, but it was some what fun. Ashlee and mom took the Ranger out for a ride. Dad, Mark, Serria, and Shea went for a ride together. And Steve and his four kids went for a ride to the Coke Ovens. With Tyra not being a able to ride, her and I stayed back and just sat around. Mom and Ashlee weren't gone too long. 

But anyways...I got attacked by the bees, I HATE bees. They seem to LOVE me, ugh. We had good laughs, a nice camp fire, nice turkey sandwichs, good s'more, telling stories, and a nice worrying issue. Steve got lost and we didn't know he was lost, we all thought the worse. But he only got lost, that is good we are glad that was all!!!!!!. Over all Saturday was a good day.

Sadly Saturday ended sad, and upsetting. Aunt Marlene passed away. I understand she is in a better place, she is no longer in pain, and she gets to see her son, and granddaughter again. Its just hard you know? She will be deeply missed for sure!!!!!!!!

Well that is that and nothing more.

Song: "Grow a Pear," by Ke$ha

Quote: " A journey of a thousand miles must start with a single step."

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Wow O wow...

I found like 3,00 picture off my old lap top (which is stubborn and will only work when it wants to, and do what it wants) I was able to get them on a USB zip drive thingy (whatever they are called) There are a few that go back to 2005, that may not sound like a long time, but it is. I would like to share a few of them.

Erica and I at my 18th Birthday party. 2006

Coty messing around. Summer of 2006

My little Dutchess.. Awww 2007

Odd picture for me, kinda funny though. 2007

Mari, Giai, Me, Coty, and Eric. Homecoming 2006

Giai and I, Homecoming 2006

Nichole, Mari, Erica, and I. My 18th birthday. 2006

My Honda Element. 2006 (his name was BooBoo)

Bree, Kyle and I. Winter Formal 2006

Prom.. Dana, Jon (I believe), Erica, me, Jon, Idk her name, and Mari. 2007

Prom 2007, Bree and I

Alex Grad, 2007

Krista (Mari sister), Mari and I, in Vegas 2007

Daniel on New Years with butter. 2009

Mari and I at party city. 2009 (I think)

In Cali after a day at Disney land. 2006

The accident Dad and I were in. Totaled his brand new jeep.. :( 2007

Another view

The only boo boo you could see on me from the accident.

Miss AngelKay and Butter 2005

Cory, Tiffany, Miranda, and Me. At the snow. 2007

The day I got my Jeep. 2008

RIP Kitty Tigger. We love you and we Miss, but we know you are around. I think this picture is from 2005

Mom and Dad on Garry's quad. 2007

Tyra's and mine first time riding on our quads. 2008

A picture Miranda took of Daniel and I. 2008

Bree and I on the swing. 2005

Look how young Tyra looks. 2005

The day I got my eyebrow done. 2006

Miss little Sassy. 2005

Tyra and I at a Toby Keith concert, I think Dad was taking the picture. 2004

These are just some of the good pictures I found. It brought a lot of memories alive, I am soo glad. I was beginning to think I would forget the past, but these pictures brought a lot of things back to life. Good and bad I am soooooooooooo happy I found them :).

I also found poems that I thought were gone FOREVER, but they aren't :))))))))

In my new class.....

In my new class we had to the "I am" project. We had to write 25 thing at I am and wonder or not it was hard to stay positive... So I thought I would share mine.

I am Tanya
I am bipolar
I am lazy alot of the time
I am a bitch
I am funny
I am loving
I am caring
I am rude
I am friendly
I am too honest sometimes
I am listener
I am a poem writing
I am a quad rider
I am animal lover
I am all about family
I am a little slow at times
I am a bad speller
I am a math lover
I am a student
I am a money saver
I am a thinker
I am a crier
I am a smart ass
I am a scrapbooker
I am me

As you can see some of my things aren't positive so it was hard for me to stay on a positive track.

Song: "House Party," by 3Oh!3
Quote: "May the spirits of Earth guide you always and keep you safe."

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Well here I go..........

I am going to share a few poems...

I stand by you
standing with you
Not in front of you
Not behind you
I stand with you
Right next to you
I have your back
Never needing to double check
I will be there
But WHERE are YOU?!?!?

Fear of being forgotten
but wanting to be alone
Thinking everyone has forgotten
not one remembering
Remembering nothing
They all have forgotten
Forgotten everything
Wanting to be forgotten
No one needs to remember
No memories
No nothing
Only to be forgotten.

You look me in the eyes
You lie through your teeth
Making believable stories
Coming up with great made up excuses
You look me in the eyes
and you lie through your teeth
I believe the things you say
I trust your every word
Like every "true friend" should
I you told you everything
I trusted my secrets within your care
I relied on you
Everything I thought you were
You never were
You looked me in eyes
you lie through teeth
Stabbed me in the back
with a knife of dishonestly and lies
Then turned it a number of times
But your mad at me?
I am in the wrong?
Funny how things work
But you can have your knife back
Because I am sure you will be needing it again
Very soon!!!

Song: "Felt Good on my Lips," Tim McGraw
Quote: "Truth is, everyone is going to hurt you. You just just gotta find the ones worth suffering for." Bob Marley
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I have a boring life... lol

I found this online, and I don't really have anything to write about, so I thought this would be fun.

5 places you go at least once a week.

Tyra's school.

Wal-mart.

A gas station.

My mail box (across the street, it counts) lol

A fast food, or sit down restaurant.

5 people who text/call you the most

Mom.

My school.

Tiffany.

Dad and Alex are a toss up. Yeah.... I don't talk to people.

5 favorite restaurants

Texas Roadhouse

Chilies

Olive Garden

Apple Bees

On the Broader

5 favorite movies

Loin King

Beauty and Beast

Toy Story

Alice in Wonderland

And anything with Adam Sander

5 favorite singers/bands 

Nickle back

Lady Gaga

P!nk

Katy Perry

3Oh!3
5 dream vacations

Egypt!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Germany

Australia

5 favorite things in your room

My bed

My Eeyore lol

My computer

Dutchess

My fans lol

5 favorite TV shows

The Nanny

Pawn Stars

American Pickers

George Lopez

My Wife and Kids

I know I know I am lame, but I hate the TV.

5 happy major moments within the last 5 years (randomly picked)

The day Haven was born.

The day I pasted my GED test.

The day I started my first college class.

The day I got Bamm Bamm (my quad).

The day I paid Lucy (my Jeep) off.

5 favorite pictures (You have on the computer now)(post the pictures)

Song: "Turn on the Radio," Reba
Quote: "True friends hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget."

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Hawaii

Italy

Alex's 21st birthday.....

I was going to write this when I got home after going out with them, but I went to bed instead. :)

Wednesday (11-17-10) was Alex's 21st birthday. So Tiffany and I took him out to eat, to the casino, and wal-mart.

We went to Apple Bees, and Alex had his first legal drink, his second, and his third, don't worry he ate dinner. lol It was pretty fun, the waiter must of liked Alex because we weren't charged for his drinks, at all. Oddly the waiter was a guy.

After Apple Bees we went to the casino, where Alex had his fourth drink. Alex got some free money on a card for his birthday (from the casino I am mean). Although it was a bitch trying to figure out how to use it, good thing I didn't have to deal with it I would got pissed lol. Poor birthday boy lost all the money he had, Tiffany lost more than half, and well I walked away with the $50 I started with plus a $1.95 more. haha

After all that we went to wal-mart, of course. All we did was walk around while Alex decided to smell a few things. I have no idea what he was doing. lol

So it was a good night I had fun, until I got home. I had a friend waiting for me. It was a daddy long leg spider. The thing was HUGE, he was as big as a tire. lol jk But no really this bad boy was HUGE, put it this way the body of it was the size of a dime and the legs omg were HUGE. He landed on my arm, and if I didn't know what the thing was I would of woke the whole neighborhood up by screaming.  lol

Over all it was a blast, I hope Alex enjoyed himself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Song: "Rockin to the Beat," Black Eyed Peas
Quote: "When you think that you can't make a difference, remember that one raindrop makes the ocean raise."

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No title today..

Mom and I went to K-Mart, I got my slippers. So my feet will now be all nice and warm. I also got socks for my flats, yes they make sock for flats. They are pretty cool if I do say so myself. :-) Also Mom got Payton some footie Pj's they are soooo cute.

I also started a new class today, PSY 220. Hopefully it is fun :-).

Lol I had a sweet tooth today so I had mom take me to the store. I got some whoppers, Hershey's cookies and cream, and Reese's fast break. Mmmm lol.

Dutchess is sitting here staring at me, and I don't know what else to say so I am done.

Song: "Peacock" by Katy Perry
Quote: "True friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget."

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Who I really am....

I have issues I know I do. I will never say I don't, they are noticeable. I don't always see things in the real true way, I see things in my fantasy world. Everything that happens is always the other person's fault. I am never to blame. I am innocent. Even though I know this isn't true, I can't seem to stop myself from thinking that way. I only seem to realize all things I do wrong at night when I am trying to sleep, and then everything that I have done wrong, comes falling out of my little mind. I hate this, I don't even think I can admit that I am wrong even if I know I am.

I am bipolar, I can and will freak out, cry, get pissed, become happy, sad, depressed, you name I can switch to any mood at any time. My moods are like a light switch, they can flicked on and off, or stay off / on for awhile. I have recently gotten help for this, I was put on a medicine. Although the medicine doesn't stop my mood swings, it does help them from happening so often. Days that I do not take my medicine can be pretty scary. If I miss two days, my family stays far far away from me. Its not like I am mean because I want to be, sometimes I don't realize I am being mean, until it is too late. I can't not control this, although I wish I could. Actually I wish this would just go away so I can be some what normal.

I have a social issue. I will explain. I hate to be around a lot of people, I hate to be in a crowd, I hate people touching me, and I rather be alone than around people (even family some days). I haven't always been like this, its has only been like the last 3 or 4 years.

I get emotional easily, since I have been put on my bipolar medicine I can't actually cry. Although tears don't come out, I still feel like crying.

I am bitch, I know it. Some days I enjoy it, and other I wish I wasn't. I REALLY DO CARE ABOUT MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY, even though some days may not seem like I do.

I say I have no friends, I have my reasons to say this. No the reasons are not what people think they are. What I mean by this is, I don't have friends who are around a lot. I have friends I know I do, and I love each one of them in their owe special ways.

My little sister is my world, I would do and / or give anything for her. I love her to death.

To finish this all up, there are a few things that I love.
Hippos
Writing
Real Ed Hardy stuff
Pictures
Black and white pictures
Ninja Turtles
Eeyore
Country music
Nickleback
Ke$ah
Lady Gaga
P!nk
Michael Grimm
Prince Poppycock
Coloring
Dolphins
Dragons
Nightmare Before Christmas
Bubba J
Shot glasses (even though I don't drink)
Blue, Pink, Purple, Black, and Grey
Polka dots
The beach
Alice in Wonderland
Adam Sandler
Sleeping
My phone
My Ipod
My computer (sometimes)
Crafts
Scrapbooking
Roses
Loin King
Beauty and the Beast
Las Vegas (there is a lot to see)
Egyptian history and stuff
Memories (good or bad)
Shopping (sometimes)
Clothes
Make-up (even though I don't wear it much at all)
My glasses (only because I can see with them on)

Umm.. I sure are soon as I post this I will think of other things to say, but I will write them down and maybe post them later. :-)


Song: "Raise Your Glass," by P!nk!!!
Quote: "Live Life, Laugh a lot, Love forever!"

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So my day went.. :-)

Spent most of the day cleaning my room, going to spent most of the week helping keep the house clean. Got to keep the house clean, because we have wonderful family coming out for Thanksgiving. Eric, Sherri, Payton, and Michael are coming down from Winslow late Thursday the 25th, and will be leaving late Saturday the 27th. Very short time to visit but I will get to spend time with Payton, ooh and Eric, Sherri and Michael too. lol. I can't wait to see them all.

Song: "Let Me Hear You Scream," by Ozzy
Quote: "If you think I am a psycho Bitch.... Just wait til you meet my other personalities."

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Hmm.. For starters! :-)

I really have no reason to start  blogging, but I thought maybe it will be fun. I like to write a lot of poems and I don't like really sharing them, but if you are going to take the time and read what I have to say than, I guess you can read them. :-)


Not going to start with a poem, but I have a goal for every time I post, it is to post a random quote of some sort, a random picture, and a song that I have listen to that day. Also all three the picture, the song and the quote will not have anything to do with one another. I love being random!!! haha :-) Lets see what kind of things I will share with whoever reads my blogs. Woo Hoo. :-).

Song: "You Can Leave Your Hat On," by Michael Grimm. (AGT winner 2010)

Quote: "I like a fight, I am stubborn, I don't listen, and I have a short temper. And I am loving every minute of it."